No, I'm not referring to that physical event that takes place when you're the only breathing creature within four walls.
I'm referring to that oh-so-comfortable-and-inviting-occurance of being the only single person in the room.
In a world full of marrieds, engageds, and serious daters, it is sometimes quite difficult to maintain a Christ-like perspective.
Tonight I joined several other delightful women from my small group for a cookie exchange. Very quickly, my singleness was felt. By me. The others were gracious and they understand the plight of the terminally single woman. But even their silence could not cause me to forget that I had no husband, no fiance, no boyfriend to share the cookies with.
"Woe is me."
Aye?
"Nay" says logic and reason.
"Nay" says the Lord.
But which voice do I heed?
I lower my head in shame as I confess that I sometimes find more comfort in woe than in the lasting hope found in the Lord. This only highlights my need for grace and forgiveness.
My status as Beloved.
My status as Christ's friend.
My status as a Forgiven Child.
So, with this confession duly noted in the public eye, I shall retire for the evening. If you find yourself in a similar place, then I pray for us. May God grant both of us the wisdom and humility necessary to see things not through the lens of What-I-Have-Not but through the lens of I-Already-Have-Everything-In-Christ.
Lord, have mercy on my heart.